Christmas Eve Morn,
normal day
I go to work, overall
it goes well.
Come Two O’Clock, an
early release to enjoy the impending holiday, it’s time to go.
At home awaits
parents, half the siblings and sweet grandmother. Can’t wait!
There she sits,
glowing in her red/black dress and red blazer. A vision, so stunning.
I greet her,
“Bendicion!” and kiss her cheek. She smiles, so happy to see me.
Christmas Eve Night,
normal night
I, with half the
siblings go to a Candlelight Service, it goes well.
Come Six O’Clock,
it’s time to go.
At home awaits
parents and sweet grandmother. Can’t wait!
Upon arrival a game
of Dominoes commences, deal me in.
Silly comments made,
“No se hace trampa” –“No cheating”.
Jokes, fun and
laughter.
Dinner is served,
everyone eats together, it’s a good time.
After the meal is
finished, the Christmas Story is read from Luke. In Spanish.
A Second Christmas
Eve Service, beautiful.
It’s getting late,
time for bed.
Christmas Morn,
Special Day
Breakfast is made, all
eat together. All goes well.
Pending Skype date
with the other half of the siblings. Can’t wait!
Gifts are opened,
gratitude is shared.
Blessings are
requested from the grandmother via Skype and love shared.
She’s tired, perhaps
a nap is needed.
Tummy ache?
Lunch time, can’t
wait!
She’s not hungry
though.
Late afternoon, 911 is
called. I see her color and life fading before my eyes.
I call to her, touch
her, hold her. She does not respond.
She’s gone I fear.
At the hospital.
Waiting, waiting and more waiting…
God what is
happening?
My fear confirmed as
the doctor comes in to give the news.
No. No, we don’t want
to hear but it’s said anyway, almost on deaf ears.
She’s gone. Forever.
The moments shared
together with her, fresh in my mind. On replay. Clear as day.
So vivid.
I will never forget.
My world just about
ended. The Pillar of Prayer. The Warrior. The sweet, cherished, beloved woman.
She was gone.
I’m angry with God,
how could He take her and on Christmas Day no less?
How could He take
her? Knowing I wanted her to bear witness to “monumental” moments.
Yet, how I could be
so selfish. She is complete, full, with no pain. She’s with Him in eternity.
One day, I will see
her again.
One day I will hug
her again.
One day.
Until then, my world
will never be the same. It’ll remain shattered, broken.
I will still miss her;
I may still cry for her.
But there is peace
knowing she’s in His hands and went to be with Him on the best day.
To celebrate
Christmas in Heaven.