Venting...

  As I'm sitting here reflecting and contemplating on the day's events I'm in between feeling fine and just outright frustrated. I know that I have no control over what happens in the day but I know that I can control how I react to it. However... I just seem to have a hard time dealing with things that aggravate me,
my anger always gets the better of me. I've given up on trying to fix it but rather embrace it. Perhaps that wouldn't seem like a smart thing to do to some people but I suppose I view it differently. [Of course my metal music always comes in handy when those moments of anger arise xD]

  I don't see myself as the kind of person that tries to do things a certain way just for people to be happy. I don't care what people think of me. I'm just me, period. I don't try and change the way I look or view things. An idea I believe in the most is "be yourself". I don't say that to be a hypocrite, or criticize anyone so hopefully no one will take offense to it. If I was the kind of person that cared about pleasing other people then that idea of "being myself" wouldn't apply to me but it does. If others can't grasp that or accept it then that's their problem. I don't have to explain myself to anyone, all I know is that I'm held accountable to God for everything that I do and my focus is on pleasing Him.

  I may not have everything figured out or all together but I do know that I'm in God's hands, He is my King and He loves me more than life itself [and you know He lives forever so that's a lot of love]. He cares and accepts me, mistakes, sins, anger and all. I couldn't ask for a better Savior and keeper of my heart. He is the only one who can ultimately make me feel complete and strengthened when trials and tribulations arise.